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Message from shelley grierson (grandmother)
" I LOVE YOU GRAN AND IAM SO SORRY IT HAS TAKEN ME ALL THIS TIME 2 SHOW SOME KIND OF FEELINGS THAT YOU WERE GONE BUT IT HURT SO MUCH NOT TO GET TO SAY GOODBYE TO YOU AND I NEVER GOT OVER THAT AND WAS NOT SURE WHAT I WAS GOING TO DO WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE . IF I ONLY KNEW THEN WHAT I KNOW NOW THINGS WOULD HAVE BEEN SO DIFFERENT FOR YOU BUT I KNOW I TRYED MY BEST AND THAT WAS ALL I COULD DO , YOUR TIME WAS UP AND I NOW HOPE YOU ARE AT PEACE . I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE AND I OFTEN WISH YOU WERE HEAR AGAIN BUT I NOW UNDERSTAND IT,S NOT GONNA BE SO I HAVE 2 LEARN 2 GET ON WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU IN IT BUT IT,S SO GOD DAM HARD MRS , IF YOU NEW WHAT I HAD NOW COMPARED TO WHEN YOU WERE ALIVE THEN LIFE COULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH EASIER BUT I CANT KEEP ALWAYS THINKING THAT WAY NOW CAN I , I JUST HOPE SO MUCH THAT YOU KNOW I SO CARED FOR YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS TREASURE THE TIMES I SPENT WITH YOU GOOD AND NOT SO BUT THAT WAS BECAUSE I WASNT SO UNDERSTANDING OF HOW YOU FELT AT THEY TIMES AND IAM SORRY , EVEN THOUGH I HAD YOU I NEEDED A LOVING MAN AND TO BE HONEST I WOULD HAVE JUST BEEN HAPPY WITH YOU AND OUR LIFE IF ONLY I HAD NEW WHAT WAS INSTORE FOR ME LOL XXXXXX I SOMETIMES WONDER SHOULD I BE HAPPY FOR WHAT I HAVE BUT AS YOU KNOW I ALWAYS FELT CHEATED IN LIFE AND BELIEVE ME AS I SPEAK I STILL FEEL THAT WAY , BUT I CHOOSE THIS LIFE SO I SUPPOSE IT,S MY OWN DOING . ANYWAY I LOVE U AND THE PROMISE I SAID I WILL ALWAYS KEEP , OH I SO NEED A HUG , LOVE U SO MUCH MY DARLING GRAN AND I CANT WAIT 2 C U AGAIN R.I.P MYLOVELY XXXX LOVE FROM SHELL BLUE X"
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